My Mom Passed Away.

blazingthru

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My mom was living on borrowed time and i kept forgetting that. I was blessed that I lived with my mother for the past almost three years. She would come into my room without knocking asking me what I was doing. She would leave and come back thirty minutes later and ask me the same question and i would pause and say what I had said earlier. She was a hoot. She had a stroke in 2012 and lost her voice, she could talk we just could not understand her and we all tried hard to figure out what she was saying, It was hard. Sometimes it was very hard and sometimes it was easy as pie. She would end up going back to the hospital and staying close to a month at time for illness that we could not catch she would say she doesn't feel well, but could not tell us what was bothering her. Eventually, it would get so bad we had to call an ambulance and still not know what was wrong. Shes been great since I went back to work, not ending up in the hospital for 2 years. but she developed a UTI and UTI' s are dangerous in the elderly, my mother was only 75 years old. We were set to go on vacation next month and she got sick, my dad called me at work to tell me she had to go to the hospital and that this may be the end for her and through my shock I raced to be with her but before we got to the hospital she recovered quickly. I spent the day with her anyway. Then I went back to work, she just had a UTI and will have to stay a bit, but will be fine. But since she came in mirroring a stroke she went to ICU and then eventually to her room. I came up a few times, and more when she went to rehab, in Rehab she was trying to escape and that is not my mom. I was shocked at that. So during this time, she wasn't being very friendly, now I know it was she just wanted to go home. But couldn't yet, we had to make sure she could balance herself and go up and down the stairs and we found out she would go home this Tuesday and so I didn't go and see her on Friday, I planned to go see her on Saturday morning. but waiting for my daughters to come to the house which they did we didn't get ready right away. What I didn't know was when my daughters arrived. My mom had already passed. they worked on her for 2 hours. Didn't call us. Finally they called us and ask us to come to the hospital and told us that she had passed and we were in total and complete shock, Shock. I am having the hardest time forgiving myself for not seeing her on Friday for not kissing her and telling her I Love her that one time. I was upset when I left her becasue she wasn't really interested in us and kept leaving us and so I said bye Mom i'll see you tomorrow, and I didn't come the next day. I got home to late from work. She passed away and I can't say those words to her again. I won't see her when I come home from work, she was always sitting in her chair and looking for me, everyday. my mom has 7 children, but I was the sentimental child and I was always here with my parents. I didn't get in my mothers face, she is from the south, not very affectionate but we were always a close knit family. I have things at my house or my church or my functions and they would come and be apart and I would come and be apart of theirs. I did really good by my mother, but oh I could have done so much more, I could have. We will lay my mom to rest Monday, June 19th. I have had barely five minutes without weeping for my mom. I am doing everything I need to do, but she was my connection to who I am and now its broken and I find it unbearable. The things I would say to her if she was still here. My dad said that I have done all a daughter should do for her mom. I should have no regrets, but I do, there was more I could have done, but I loved my mother, I hoped she knew that
 

Chicoro

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I am sorry for your loss.

Your mommy loved you and you loved your mommy.

You've done right by your mother.

When I read your story, I realized how hopeful and positive you were, because of her. You had a great deal of faith and experience in your mother's powerful strength. She never gave up, even with all the physical challenges that happened to her after her stroke. Each time she had a set-back, another difficulty, another illness, she always fought it and overcame it. And there'd she be sitting at home in her favorite chair. This last time in the hospital was no different. Your actions were based on knowing how strong your mother is and how things have always turned out before. You've been so good, such a giving, kind and helpful child to your precious, precious mother.

May you find comfort and strength in your time of need. Ask for support and help and it shall be given.
 

Lovely_Lady82

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Of course your mother knows that you loved and cared for her very much!! It is very evident by your ACTIONS that you loved her based on all of the time, attention, and support you gave her and your father. My condolences to you and your family and I pray that you are able to find rest, peace, and comfort during this difficult time.
 

Misseyl

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Sorry for your loss. Don't worry your mother knows you loved her and that you did the best for her. I know, when my father died, I questioned myself a lot. Maybe I should have done this or I should have done that, but no matter what, things would still have been the same. :afro:
 
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naturalfinally

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Oh Blazingthru! My eyes weep with you. I know.......I know......Almost the same thing with mine. My heart is right now knitted with yours. She knew you loved her. The words are good but the actions, the looks, the laughs, the conversations, the silences......they all convey what words can never express. On angels wings she has flown. Imagine her never hurting again and having all of her faculties....watching you as you move through life, being proud of you. Knowing that she had so much to do with who you are. Crying now with you.
 

Rsgal

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My sincere condolences for the loss of your mum.
Don't beat yourself up for missing that one visit. Your mother knew you loved her and did the best and she is gonna bless you and so will God.
 

Godsdaughter001

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@blazingthru May God bless you and put your mind at ease. Your post was beautiful and you are a beautiful person. But even more, you are a loving and caring daughter. Of course your mom knew you loved her. That's why she was there to greet you and looking for you when you came home in the afternoons. It's no mistake that out of all of her 7 children she came to live with you in the end. :hug2: I will be praying for you and your family.
 

Shimmie

"God is the Only Truth -- Period"
Staff member
Dearest Blaz..❤

I am so sorry for your loss. I can only imagine how deeply you are hurting. No matter what, you have such a true heart of love and your darling mother knew this, so much so, that she takes this love of yours with her and Jesus.

My prayers are with you, all in love and in the sincerest of care. I will be praying for you and your family.

Love,
Shimmie
 

blazingthru

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Dearest Blaz..❤

I am so sorry for your loss. I can only imagine how deeply you are hurting. No matter what, you have such a true heart of love and your darling mother knew this, so much so, that she takes this love of yours with her and Jesus.

My prayers are with you, all in love and in the sincerest of care. I will be praying for you and your family.

Love,
Shimmie
Thank you Shimmie, I am not even trying to hold back my tears. I been blessed, I had my mother for a long time. I know there really is never enough time. The wake is Sunday, I am hoping I keep it together.
 

nursenappy

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I'm sorry about your mom. I love the Prophecy and promise from God in the very first sentence at Isaiah 26:19 Your dead will live. Please take comfort in someday soon, you will be able to tell your mom many many things. Rev 21:4 And he will wipe out every tear from their eyes, and death will be no more, neither will mourning nor outcry nor pain be anymore. The former things have passed away.”
 
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