i want purple hair or blue no not highlight the whole thing
and have it show up cause my hair is dark coloured naturally and no semi permanent colour is showing up on my head.
Its no secret on this forum. I've posted about my big secret a couple of times before. I've been dealing with trichotillomania consistently for the past 7 years. For those who don't want to google its the obsessive compulsive disorder one has to pull out their own body hair. it could be from anywhere on the body. I have been pulling from my scalp for 7 years now and I really wish I could stop completely. You ask the why don't you just stop?! Don't you want long hair?! I really do. but its like a terrible habit like drugs like smoking. Right now I have nearly bald spots that about 3-4 inches in diameter on the left and right sides of my head. It's like I'm missing 15% of my hair. I thank God my hair is thick enough to keep the bald spots covered though. I can only wear certain styles, no styles like cornrows or Bantu knots though. I hardly let anyone do my hair, when they do I just say something vague like "I've been having some breakage." It's my biggest shameful secret.
Its no secret on this forum. I've posted about my big secret a couple of times before. I've been dealing with trichotillomania consistently for the past 7 years. For those who don't want to google its the obsessive compulsive disorder one has to pull out their own body hair. it could be from anywhere on the body. I have been pulling from my scalp for 7 years now and I really wish I could stop completely. You ask the why don't you just stop?! Don't you want long hair?! I really do. but its like a terrible habit like drugs like smoking. Right now I have nearly bald spots that about 3-4 inches in diameter on the left and right sides of my head. It's like I'm missing 15% of my hair. I thank God my hair is thick enough to keep the bald spots covered though. I can only wear certain styles, no styles like cornrows or Bantu knots though. I hardly let anyone do my hair, when they do I just say something vague like "I've been having some breakage." It's my biggest shameful secret.
Shouldn't the pain alone make you stop? *ouch*
if i enter the conversation or am part of it...Type 4s are adamant about telling me what i should/could do to my hair bc i have "that type of hair"...or they want to see it straightened. Or they will just 
I don't tell them what to do and oftentimes i give a compliment. 
I wish i had real life 3c/3b friends. I feel alone in the Real Life natural world. Every single natural i know in real life has 4a/4b hair and they either treat me like an ****** unicorn or give me the rudest attitude.
I used to try not to get into hair typing....but in real life I've been so "othered" its like...like im not welcome amongst type 4 naturals.
I almost feel like i should flipping apologize to them for having loose curls. Im ****** sorry that not all of my curls are the size of pen springs and coffee stirrers! Yes the majority of my curls are the size of pencils and sharpies.
I feel left out often...i love talking hair...but i notice there's a real sisterhood amongst type 4 naturals and i don't have that experience
Another thing that grinds my ****** gears about being a type 3 natural...is that ive seen numerous times ppl throwing shade bc a type 3 acknowledges this crap and says something about it....its real outchere! Its even hard to find t shirts that celebrate curly hair. I have only seen about 4 shirts i like amongst the THOUSANDS of shirts and accessories made to celebrate fros and kinky hair.
I guess im just frustrated bc i don't know any other Black women in real life with 3b/3c hair. All i relate to are the few i find on Youtube. Nobody in my family has hair like mine either. I was even thinking of trying to form a FB group or something.
I know the saying is "it wouldn't be an issue if you didn't make it one"...but i didn't.. its just things I've noticed as my hair gets longer. Once again in life im an outcast.
The only other type 3s i DO see are Hispanic women...but they have that fine/silky type 3 hair...mine is coarse 3c...Medium, even. It doesn't shine like the typical type 3 hair you think of...it has sheen but it doesn't shine and its not fine....for the most part.
In fact i am in LOVE with the Type 4 curl pattern that is at my nape..you can't really see it though unless i lift my hair up...but even though i find it beautiful...i don't just feel the need to touch ppls hair. And they always catch me off guard! I almost popped this one girl in the nose because she scared me when she pulled on my hair!
to all of it.
