Nice & Wavy
Well-Known Member
Just wanted to share with those of you who may be a little frustrated by some of the things we have been reading these past few days, from those who are/were Christians that have changed their thoughts about who God is, and the Majesty of Jesus Christ.
As people go through different periods of their lives: trials, sufferings, depression, etc., most times they blame God for their troubles, because maybe they may feel that He isn't hearing them or that He wasn't on time when they needed Him. As a person who has gone through many, many trials and sufferings myself, and still experience these things even now, I can say that my heart goes out to them with understanding, that it is easier to give up on God, then to stay the course and allow Him to show Himself strong in your life during these situations.
Jesus was a man, just like we are...yet, He did not sin. He understood the hardships that we endure in our minds and our hearts and has made a way for us so that we can have an opportunity to "overcome" those things that will cause us to "fall away" from the Grace of God.
The power that is in Christ...no man can comprehend. Our minds can't go that deep. But, the one thing I do know about Him...He is REAL and He is WORTHY OF PRAISE, GLORY AND ALL HONOR! There is no shadow of turning in Him...for He is the LIGHT OF THE WORLD!
He has totally and completely changed my life.
Let me share with you a story of my life before I gave my heart to Jesus, the Christ.
21 years ago I was about to jump in front of a train and commit suicide. I was also going to take my son with me, because I did not want to leave my family the burden of taking care of him, all the while thinking about what I did.
I had it all planned out: date, time...everything. The day came. It was the last day of school for him and I picked him up after school had ended. He was such a handsome boy...curly hair, (blondish brown)...light brown eyes and he was only 8 years old. I looked at him at that moment with so much love and so much fear...all at the same time. I knew that i needed to end this thing called life because I could no longer live like I was living....I didn't have God...how could God love me, when i was so unlovely
I took him by the hand and began to lead him to this place of death. As we were walking there was some type of festival going on where they had clowns, and puppet shows, food..etc. Boy, my son was happy because he saw the cotton candy and icees they were giving away for free. He wanted to stop...but I had different plans..we needed to get to this place of death, so I told him no. We continued to walk. Someone called my name. I didn't turn around. My name was called again...this time, I looked and it was two brothers that I knew from High School. They stopped me and I told them I had to go. They told me to allow my son to have some cotton candy and to see the puppetshow before we continued on. My son begged me. I thought about it...and then I said to myself "well, at least he will have his last fun time before he dies" and I said ok. I let him go, and while I was waiting for him to finish, I didn't realize that it was a church...on the street doing this for people in the community. I started walking down the street a little and there was this man, standing up talking to some people about how one day he had decided to commit suicide. He talked about how he was depressed because of the things he did to his wife and to his family.
He talked about how he had planned this whole thing out...and the day he was going to do it, someone had told him that Jesus loved him. He said that he didn't really want to hear it, but he did to appease them, so that they can leave him alone and he can continue on with his plan.
But....he never left.
He listened and then began to ask questions. The more he ask the questions, the more the answers began to help him. The longer he stayed...the more he realized that what he really needed was....God.
He grew up knowing about God, but never fully understanding that God really and truly loved him. Out of all the people in the world...God loved..him. He grasped ahold of that...and began to weep. He gave his life to Christ that day...on a dirt road in New Mexico.
He said at that moment...there is someone here who is experiencing this very thing right now. Who may be questioning themselves as to whether they should live because of the pain that fills their heart. He said..."I just want to tell you something....God loves you!"
At that moment....everything seemed to change around me...like my senses had heightened to "super" and I realized that I needed God to....love ME!!!
Tears began to fall down my face. They were hot...stinging my face as if someone was pouring hot oil on it. I began to weep...not because of what I was about to do...but because I knew that deep down inside...I was lonely and I needed help.
The man came over to me and looked me square in my eyes...I noticed how blue his eyes were, very sharp blue! I don't think I've ever seen eyes so blue before, I thought. Then, he said to me that God has a great plan for my life and that what I was about to do...would change the course that God had set in the earth.
I knew then that I needed to change my heart...and I gave my life to Jesus Christ, right there on a street corner. The same street corner I had walked on for years. The same street corner I had seen many things that I won't even discuss here..terrible things.
I couldn't walk...couldn't speak. I knew that something had changed in me. I couldn't understand it, but I knew...it was GOOD!
I couldn't take care of my son for two weeks after that. I screamed and screamed at God "Why did you stop me? If you are real....help me."
He did just that.
Not the way I thought He would...not the way I wanted Him too. His way and it was GOOD!
I praise Him, because I KNOW I have been fearfully and wonderfully made!
That day changed the course of my life...forever. Did I still go through trials and tribulations? Oh yes...those years following were some of the worse years of my life, but I had to trust Him. I had to know Him. I had to see that what He promised, He was able to perform in my life.
And He is still working on me. He is still performing in my life. I'm still trusting Him and I am learning still...to know Him.
But....I know that He is...and that He is a rewarder to those who diligently seek Him.
My heart breaks for those who suffer with lonliness, emptiness, brokenness...because I've been there so many times.
But...the one thing I know that those "ness'es" that come into our lives, are not comparable to what God has in store for those of us who love Him.
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When I was in my mother's womb and about to be born...the umbilical cord was wrapped around my neck and I was breached...I was strangling to death. Back then, they didn't have the technologies they have now to see what is going on with the baby in the womb. I started coming out butt first. So imagine that I was butt first in the womb, my head upward toward the cervix and the cord wrapped around my neck. I was dying.
The doctor realized what was going on...she was a black woman with a short afro (that's what my momma told me) and she began to turn me around in the womb with one hand, and unwrap the umbilical cord with the other hand.
I'M STILL HERE....THANK YOU JESUS!
Even though I should have been dead...I'm still here. Oh, God in Heaven.....!
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I didn't write all of this for those that don't want to hear. It's ok if they don't....I feel no different towards them than before I wrote these words. But, I did write this for those that do want to hear this message:
May the Lord bless you and keep you. May He make His face to shine upon you and be gracious to you. May the Lord lift up His Countenance upon you and give you....PEACE!
As people go through different periods of their lives: trials, sufferings, depression, etc., most times they blame God for their troubles, because maybe they may feel that He isn't hearing them or that He wasn't on time when they needed Him. As a person who has gone through many, many trials and sufferings myself, and still experience these things even now, I can say that my heart goes out to them with understanding, that it is easier to give up on God, then to stay the course and allow Him to show Himself strong in your life during these situations.
Jesus was a man, just like we are...yet, He did not sin. He understood the hardships that we endure in our minds and our hearts and has made a way for us so that we can have an opportunity to "overcome" those things that will cause us to "fall away" from the Grace of God.
The power that is in Christ...no man can comprehend. Our minds can't go that deep. But, the one thing I do know about Him...He is REAL and He is WORTHY OF PRAISE, GLORY AND ALL HONOR! There is no shadow of turning in Him...for He is the LIGHT OF THE WORLD!
He has totally and completely changed my life.
Let me share with you a story of my life before I gave my heart to Jesus, the Christ.
21 years ago I was about to jump in front of a train and commit suicide. I was also going to take my son with me, because I did not want to leave my family the burden of taking care of him, all the while thinking about what I did.
I had it all planned out: date, time...everything. The day came. It was the last day of school for him and I picked him up after school had ended. He was such a handsome boy...curly hair, (blondish brown)...light brown eyes and he was only 8 years old. I looked at him at that moment with so much love and so much fear...all at the same time. I knew that i needed to end this thing called life because I could no longer live like I was living....I didn't have God...how could God love me, when i was so unlovely
I took him by the hand and began to lead him to this place of death. As we were walking there was some type of festival going on where they had clowns, and puppet shows, food..etc. Boy, my son was happy because he saw the cotton candy and icees they were giving away for free. He wanted to stop...but I had different plans..we needed to get to this place of death, so I told him no. We continued to walk. Someone called my name. I didn't turn around. My name was called again...this time, I looked and it was two brothers that I knew from High School. They stopped me and I told them I had to go. They told me to allow my son to have some cotton candy and to see the puppetshow before we continued on. My son begged me. I thought about it...and then I said to myself "well, at least he will have his last fun time before he dies" and I said ok. I let him go, and while I was waiting for him to finish, I didn't realize that it was a church...on the street doing this for people in the community. I started walking down the street a little and there was this man, standing up talking to some people about how one day he had decided to commit suicide. He talked about how he was depressed because of the things he did to his wife and to his family.
He talked about how he had planned this whole thing out...and the day he was going to do it, someone had told him that Jesus loved him. He said that he didn't really want to hear it, but he did to appease them, so that they can leave him alone and he can continue on with his plan.
But....he never left.
He listened and then began to ask questions. The more he ask the questions, the more the answers began to help him. The longer he stayed...the more he realized that what he really needed was....God.
He grew up knowing about God, but never fully understanding that God really and truly loved him. Out of all the people in the world...God loved..him. He grasped ahold of that...and began to weep. He gave his life to Christ that day...on a dirt road in New Mexico.
He said at that moment...there is someone here who is experiencing this very thing right now. Who may be questioning themselves as to whether they should live because of the pain that fills their heart. He said..."I just want to tell you something....God loves you!"
At that moment....everything seemed to change around me...like my senses had heightened to "super" and I realized that I needed God to....love ME!!!
Tears began to fall down my face. They were hot...stinging my face as if someone was pouring hot oil on it. I began to weep...not because of what I was about to do...but because I knew that deep down inside...I was lonely and I needed help.
The man came over to me and looked me square in my eyes...I noticed how blue his eyes were, very sharp blue! I don't think I've ever seen eyes so blue before, I thought. Then, he said to me that God has a great plan for my life and that what I was about to do...would change the course that God had set in the earth.
I knew then that I needed to change my heart...and I gave my life to Jesus Christ, right there on a street corner. The same street corner I had walked on for years. The same street corner I had seen many things that I won't even discuss here..terrible things.
I couldn't walk...couldn't speak. I knew that something had changed in me. I couldn't understand it, but I knew...it was GOOD!
I couldn't take care of my son for two weeks after that. I screamed and screamed at God "Why did you stop me? If you are real....help me."
He did just that.
Not the way I thought He would...not the way I wanted Him too. His way and it was GOOD!
I praise Him, because I KNOW I have been fearfully and wonderfully made!
That day changed the course of my life...forever. Did I still go through trials and tribulations? Oh yes...those years following were some of the worse years of my life, but I had to trust Him. I had to know Him. I had to see that what He promised, He was able to perform in my life.
And He is still working on me. He is still performing in my life. I'm still trusting Him and I am learning still...to know Him.
But....I know that He is...and that He is a rewarder to those who diligently seek Him.
My heart breaks for those who suffer with lonliness, emptiness, brokenness...because I've been there so many times.
But...the one thing I know that those "ness'es" that come into our lives, are not comparable to what God has in store for those of us who love Him.
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When I was in my mother's womb and about to be born...the umbilical cord was wrapped around my neck and I was breached...I was strangling to death. Back then, they didn't have the technologies they have now to see what is going on with the baby in the womb. I started coming out butt first. So imagine that I was butt first in the womb, my head upward toward the cervix and the cord wrapped around my neck. I was dying.
The doctor realized what was going on...she was a black woman with a short afro (that's what my momma told me) and she began to turn me around in the womb with one hand, and unwrap the umbilical cord with the other hand.
I'M STILL HERE....THANK YOU JESUS!
Even though I should have been dead...I'm still here. Oh, God in Heaven.....!
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I didn't write all of this for those that don't want to hear. It's ok if they don't....I feel no different towards them than before I wrote these words. But, I did write this for those that do want to hear this message:
GOD LOVES YOU SO MUCH, YOU HAVE NO IDEA
HOW MUCH HE LOVES YOU!
HOW MUCH HE LOVES YOU!
May the Lord bless you and keep you. May He make His face to shine upon you and be gracious to you. May the Lord lift up His Countenance upon you and give you....PEACE!
