I definitely feel you. Step one: stay encouraged. you did the right thing by coming here, to vent and get some help. Be encouraged, your hair
is growing. You just gotta find the best way for you to retain that growth.
If your hair is breaking while shampooing, you might have to drop the shampoo completey -- i know i did. You've got to narrow down what's drying out your hair. Growing up i was told i had the coarsest, driest hair too, but with the proper care any hair type is manageable, and will grow. My regime has taken care of my hair's shortcomings and allowed it to thrive. It's still growing out -- i shaved my hair off almost a year and a half ago from a texturizer -- but it's definitely the healthiest my hair has ever been. it is soft, hydrated, and tangle free, even in its twa state.
My regime is 3 steps,
wms:
wet: (
water, weekly conditioner wash)
no-poos -- suave humectress, awapuhi, or biobasics, or tresemme vit. e. ...
moisturise: (humectant, daily moisture spray)
wave nouveau finishing lotion, african pride braid sheen spray, care free gold ...
seal: (botanical, weekly leave-in)
aussie moist, trader joe's nourish spa, garnier fructis curl & shine, aubrey organics rose mosqueta, gpb or white camellia, aphogee intensive keratin reconstructor, sally's generic value products (sgvp) concentrated leave-in treatment, sgvp detangler, sgvp smoothing conditioner, nzinga herbal hair lotion ...
i basically follow a modified no-oil regime. any oils/butters i use are in
cream form, blended in with a humectant, botanical product. otherwise they just sit on my hair.
i can't stress enough keeping a positive mindset. be encouraged that by learning how to manage your inch of hair, that's going to allow you to manage every inch of growth thereafter -- this is a blessing, not a curse.
If you focus on self-defeating thoughts "Im lost i just don't feel like i can do this," you'll re-inforce those thoughts with self-defeating behavior "I just feel so unmotivated i don't even bother taking my vitamins anymore or anything". Take your vitamins. Eat healthier foods. Stay encouraged. I can't emphasize this enough.
Focus on what you're doing right. Focus on what is working and do more of it. Yes your cousin's hair is growing, but yours is too.
Focus on the positive things that are coming out of your head. The fact that you chose to bc and grow healthy, long hair is a good step. Focus on that. Mistakes will be made, trial & error is part of the process, but it's about how you look at, and react to those trials that makes the difference. hth