Fearfully Wonderfully Made
Thanks Laela. I'm trying to trust in the Lord with all my heart, mind, and soul. The situation with my father is discouraging me from going to church big time. I just had to vent about it here. I'm tired of holding it in. And I certainly don't feel "holier-than-thou". I know that I sin and fall short of God's glory at times. All Christians do. And I also believe my faith is being tested as well. Everytime my dad speaks against me, it just makes me seek His word and read my Bible even more. See, y'all don't understand. My dad uses the Bible to fit his agenda. He'll twist the Word of God to fit his own opinions. I don't know how else to explain it but I know it's not right. And he uses the Bible to intimidate and force people to do what he wants them to do. And when he doesn't get his way from people, he either gets mad, frustrated, starts gossiping to other people about them and even judges their salvation. And I was talking to my sister about this and I think you're right about him putting me on this so-called pedestal. Anything I do is not good enough. And I feel like if I give in even more to what he wants me to do, he will get even more unappreciative and more controlling and I will lose myself in the process and my relationship with God will suffer.Hi, Pooh,
I hope things work out well for you...please stay encouraged in the Lord and try not to lean unto your own understanding. I agree with Shimmie this isn't your dad's doing but a trick by the enemy to discourage you from going to Church.
Please don't let how you feel get you caught up in the "the holier-than-though" rhetoric. That's just a tool for the enemy. Something else is going on here and I ask that you seek God's face concerning your place in that church. I believe your faith is being tested.
It's very clear you love your dad and he loves you. What I think he's done is put you on a pedastal and that's not fair to you. People tend to do that sometimes, when they see you trying your best to live the life God wants you to live. Nothing you do will be good enough.
Stay encouraged, sis!