Aviah
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Okay, I usually try not to drop these things on anyone because they usually never know what to say. But it just feels eveything is out of place with me at the moment.
1) SO and I have been together a year, prayed about the relationship and got God's go ahead on it. Things were fine, and while he is very careing, understanding, considerate and all the other great things you would want, (yes he is saved) he's not open about his walk with God, because he's not comfortable discussing it like that. He says he'll open up here and there when its relelvent but he will not proactively bring up things God has shown him etc.How are you going to be the head of the household (spiritually as well) if you do not do this? He doesn't like praying on the phone because he doesn't feel the connection with God when we do that.. Anyway we agreed that I would be patient and try to wait for him to open up more and still be open about how I am with God in the meantime. But it feels one-sided, just giving, pouring out, etc, and not getting anything back in that light, not to mention I think he will just get comfortable not having to be open with spirituality and not change. We do not share the word together often, if at all, we don't pray together often, and we spend a lot of time as of recent arguing about things. Not to mention we are struggling with sexual sin (which I truly hate, as well as hate to admit). He doesn't feel comfortable getting mentoring/councelling for us, but yet he tells me we won't because "we're not ready" yet. It frustrates the life out of me and I always go back to God and get the same thing- stick with it. I'm at my wits end here...
2)I'm not feeling going to church, trying to read the word and geting closer to God, but somehow after our week-long convention 2 weeks ago with thte message all being about praying that every demon stopping your success must die, I'm fed up. I'm know I need to get closer to God, but I'm somehow just not feeling it, sturggling to pray and all that. Especially as no one seems to want to come to Christ, and having an "impact" on the world around me isn't really working when it comes to influencing peopel for God. Spoke to a girl I go to college with who decided she's not discussing God with me, she's maknig her decision to give up on even asking questions about salvation, which is disappointing to say the least.
3) Not to mention I feel I need more like-minded friends on fire for God to recieve from and give to... Sharpen each other you know? For some reason its hard for me to make friends, (true core friends) though I have one that seems to be very inrovert and "need me" less than I "need" her. I have lots of aquaintences, and good company but its not enough. 2-3 core friends is all I really want.
4) My cousin is a lesbian who has given her life to Christ but the feelnigs have never left her. But then again her being at my hosue the past while I haven't seen her read the word or anything, and she says she doesn't know why she isn't on fire for God. I want to encourage her and have tried but I'm not sure where it goes.
5)I failed my Jr. year in college and have to resit the test next year, delaying my graduation by a year. It doesn't bother me too much but it saddens me I'm not graduating next summer after all
Its just a lot to carry right now... And everything feels off mostly because I'm not close to God as I should be...
1) SO and I have been together a year, prayed about the relationship and got God's go ahead on it. Things were fine, and while he is very careing, understanding, considerate and all the other great things you would want, (yes he is saved) he's not open about his walk with God, because he's not comfortable discussing it like that. He says he'll open up here and there when its relelvent but he will not proactively bring up things God has shown him etc.How are you going to be the head of the household (spiritually as well) if you do not do this? He doesn't like praying on the phone because he doesn't feel the connection with God when we do that.. Anyway we agreed that I would be patient and try to wait for him to open up more and still be open about how I am with God in the meantime. But it feels one-sided, just giving, pouring out, etc, and not getting anything back in that light, not to mention I think he will just get comfortable not having to be open with spirituality and not change. We do not share the word together often, if at all, we don't pray together often, and we spend a lot of time as of recent arguing about things. Not to mention we are struggling with sexual sin (which I truly hate, as well as hate to admit). He doesn't feel comfortable getting mentoring/councelling for us, but yet he tells me we won't because "we're not ready" yet. It frustrates the life out of me and I always go back to God and get the same thing- stick with it. I'm at my wits end here...
2)I'm not feeling going to church, trying to read the word and geting closer to God, but somehow after our week-long convention 2 weeks ago with thte message all being about praying that every demon stopping your success must die, I'm fed up. I'm know I need to get closer to God, but I'm somehow just not feeling it, sturggling to pray and all that. Especially as no one seems to want to come to Christ, and having an "impact" on the world around me isn't really working when it comes to influencing peopel for God. Spoke to a girl I go to college with who decided she's not discussing God with me, she's maknig her decision to give up on even asking questions about salvation, which is disappointing to say the least.
3) Not to mention I feel I need more like-minded friends on fire for God to recieve from and give to... Sharpen each other you know? For some reason its hard for me to make friends, (true core friends) though I have one that seems to be very inrovert and "need me" less than I "need" her. I have lots of aquaintences, and good company but its not enough. 2-3 core friends is all I really want.
4) My cousin is a lesbian who has given her life to Christ but the feelnigs have never left her. But then again her being at my hosue the past while I haven't seen her read the word or anything, and she says she doesn't know why she isn't on fire for God. I want to encourage her and have tried but I'm not sure where it goes.
5)I failed my Jr. year in college and have to resit the test next year, delaying my graduation by a year. It doesn't bother me too much but it saddens me I'm not graduating next summer after all
Its just a lot to carry right now... And everything feels off mostly because I'm not close to God as I should be...
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