Read Romans chapter 12 seven times. Meditate on God's word until it moves from your head into your heart. You have said before that you are familiar with what the Bible says. Well, now is the time to DO what God says.I never felt so lonely, unprotected, hateful and full of revenge.
I don’t know what to do at this point. I leave it up to God. I don’t know what plans he has for me, but it can’t be this. There has to be more, better. I don’t know what lesson I need to learn, but I know I give up fighting. I release it all.
I am praying that God will deliver you from the power of darkness that is currently over your life, in Jesus Christ's name, Amen!