To be straight up honest, I don't want to post this. Here I am, meditating on the Father this morning and the words (including the title) pop up, along with the associated emotions. I am cringing at the thought of another lecture from someone about this issue. It is a recurring theme: I give someone information; it gets either ignored, pooh-poohed, or outright rejected; sometime later, the person gushes over receiving the very information they got elsewhere, totally forgetting that I had mentioned it first, sometimes several times. Occasionally, I remind the person about what I said, other times, I just complain to DH. The reason why it is an issue for me is because I am not in the church and religion system, so I feel invalidated by believers because of that. One guy I had listened to the past two years, Arthur Burk, calls it a legitimacy lie - a belief that you must do something to be seen as valid in the eyes of Yah and men. Our legitimacy should only come from the Father's love and His work in us, nowhere else. The soul always wanted to lead, instead of being in subjection to the Spirit, causing a loss of humility. Humility is caring about what Father Yah thinks about oneself above everything else. "There is no glory in sowing seeds." That is the word I got today, meaning "no recognition, get over it." The Father had a few people with different speaking styles try to get this through my head. The adversary definitely went out of his way to mock me through others (praise or rejection). With His help, the old roots of this problems will be dug out and burned. Throw the seed and keep it moving!