BlackHairDiva
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Since I last wrote to all of you, I have gotten some legal help for my mom's situation. Everything is still very stressful and well, I'm still tired and I dread waking up because I dread the idea of dealing with all the things i need to do.
As I mentioned in my original post. I was going to take a trip ( small vacation) and I was going to rest and travel to my favorite city. I told my mom 4 weeks in advance about my trip and I reminded the day before the trip. The day of the trip, I saw her before I left, told her about when I will be back and at what time. Gave her a hug and a kiss. Told her that I would take pictures for her. I told her that I will call at what time I would call while I was on my trip.
Well, the trip was beautiful and my hair look a lot better. Its shorter cause i had to cut the bad ends...but It's healthy now. I walked and took pictures during my vacation. I loved it , I was happy, it was peaceful. I enjoyed walking a lot in the city. The people are kind over there. I have been wanting to move there since 2002. During my trip I called home 5 times. No answers.
I got home and I was excited to get home cause I was able to make it earlier... I couldn't wait to see mom and tell her about my trip.
Well folks....I'm a fool. A big ridiculous dummy. I can't help but wonder Why I'm here. I came home and mom greeted me and then mom signal me that she was gonna fake towards my older bro and sister in law. She was like:" Why didn't you tell me you had meetings? I was worried sick, I couldn't sleep!! Tell everyone where you were. There I am a 31 year old fool, who was supposedly/ unbeknown to me sneaked out of the house for days and now how those that make me look? Why couldn't she just said to my siblings BlackHairDiva is gone in so and so city she'll be back saturday at 11PM.
I'm so sick to the stomach, I don't even wanna see anyone. I've had it. As I'm typing I'm looking for a full time job and an apartment. I'm tired of being a fool. Just tired of being played like that.I'm a damn fool.
I got another older sister, she never answers her phone and told mom in an email that she wants to take time to set her life straight, financially, career wise and hopefully start a family of her own.
It's time for me to pack and not turn back.
I'm a royal idiot.
Here is my original post sent last month:
As I mentioned in my original post. I was going to take a trip ( small vacation) and I was going to rest and travel to my favorite city. I told my mom 4 weeks in advance about my trip and I reminded the day before the trip. The day of the trip, I saw her before I left, told her about when I will be back and at what time. Gave her a hug and a kiss. Told her that I would take pictures for her. I told her that I will call at what time I would call while I was on my trip.
Well, the trip was beautiful and my hair look a lot better. Its shorter cause i had to cut the bad ends...but It's healthy now. I walked and took pictures during my vacation. I loved it , I was happy, it was peaceful. I enjoyed walking a lot in the city. The people are kind over there. I have been wanting to move there since 2002. During my trip I called home 5 times. No answers.
I got home and I was excited to get home cause I was able to make it earlier... I couldn't wait to see mom and tell her about my trip.
Well folks....I'm a fool. A big ridiculous dummy. I can't help but wonder Why I'm here. I came home and mom greeted me and then mom signal me that she was gonna fake towards my older bro and sister in law. She was like:" Why didn't you tell me you had meetings? I was worried sick, I couldn't sleep!! Tell everyone where you were. There I am a 31 year old fool, who was supposedly/ unbeknown to me sneaked out of the house for days and now how those that make me look? Why couldn't she just said to my siblings BlackHairDiva is gone in so and so city she'll be back saturday at 11PM.
I'm so sick to the stomach, I don't even wanna see anyone. I've had it. As I'm typing I'm looking for a full time job and an apartment. I'm tired of being a fool. Just tired of being played like that.I'm a damn fool.
I got another older sister, she never answers her phone and told mom in an email that she wants to take time to set her life straight, financially, career wise and hopefully start a family of her own.
It's time for me to pack and not turn back.
I'm a royal idiot.Here is my original post sent last month:
My mom got a call from her bank and they claim she opened a credit card back in 1995. She doesn't remember opening a card. The thing about the date they mentioned is that its too familiar to me. I graduated High school in June 1995, so I remember pretty well that summer. I'm suspecting two things mom was out of country when this happened. Cause I noticed some pics she took while she was in africa. The bank is currently taking out any money that appears in the account. Mom can't even buy her medication and she has no income. I wish I could find her old passport or something that can prove she was out of the country but I can't.
Last week, the entire week, I have been on the phone with bankers, etc. I have been sleeping with my head right next to the phone...to make sure i don't miss no calls.
My dad passed a way 3 years ago, ever since he passed...its been hell.
I moved in with mom Took care of her and granny. Both have health problem. I'm working part time , at night. Im trying to apply for mba. Im attempting to study my gmat and toefl ...its hell and I rarely get to study cause Im busy with all the drama. I barely have time to myself and when i do...Im usually exhausted.
I have dealt with mom's house being robbed, vandalized, her being sicker than usual, other family death( both grandfathers on mom's side and an aunt on mom's side), financial issues mom had i help sort that out looking for answers, laws,etc. Doctors appointments i let her know when , where wake her up. On top of doing the laundry fixing meals, etc. I work part time , during evenings, I come home usually close to midnight...tired...I wake up exhausted, and go to bed exhausted.
Right now....I feel like an animal...my body is shaking I'm tired mentally, physically, emotionally and i feel hopeless. I'm sick of being in a situation where no one helps. I just want to crawl in a hole rumble and not come out! I super tired and I have had it....sorry folks for venting like this.
I'm tired!!!! Its been 3 years of doing everything for everyone and barely anything for me. I cant take it anymore. I'm hoping on the bus Friday, I will take a 12 hours bus ride. when the bus stops I will get my hair done then come back...I wish I didn't have to come back
Any word of encouragement? any advice? anything... I'm desperate. I can't take it.
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