It sounds like you feel
trapped into relaxing b/c you think you cannot go natural b/c of your texture ... I thought the same thing sis ...but you CAN do it...trust me ... if you really want to go natural, it does not matter what texture grows out of your head ... there are a growing number of 4Bs popping up all over the online natural hair community sharing pics for inspiration & regimens to help others learn how to best handle this delicate often misunderstood & often HATED texture ... 4B natural hair can be just as healthy looking, beautiful, long, etc as other textures... it's a journey but it is in no way impossible
I know this is off topic but I just had to post this for our sister and any others who feel this way ...