Amante, gird up and keep your heart and mind on Jesus and not on the 'fall of man.'
Sweetheart, 'men' [male and female] will fall and fail, but Jesus NEVER will. Don't let this stop you from attending Church and growing deeper in the love and knowledge of God.
satan would love nothing more than to have you give up and come into his court of deception and destruction.
My very first Pastor also fell into sexual sin. But when I remember the strength and the respect and the love of a 'Father' that he always gave me and my children, as I 'grew' in his Church, I am all the more stronger, for I know how to still love him and pray for him and for God to restore him.
Amante, you are bigger than all of the diversities that have arisen in the Church. Amante, you are indeed above it; far above it. Amante, you are above anything that satan could ever throw at you and you will not sink, neither will you stumble or fall. For you are planted upon the Rock, our Lord Jesus Christ and not upon the sinking sand of the sins of man.
Amante, Jesus said, that He will always be with you and to look to Him who is the true Author and the Finisher of your faith. And in this life with Jesus, Amante, we have 'GREAT' faith. For who is it who came to our rescue time and time again when we thought there was no other rescue. Jesus came and He always will, for He is our Jehovah Shammah, our God who is always and already there.
Amante, thank God for the man who baptised you. Thank God for him and his life.
Amante, thank God for Bishop Long and for all that you learned in God's word for him.
Amante thank God for Pastor Paul Sheppard for the integrity that he has 'still' as a man of God, who has fallen and has been humble enough to bow before God, to seek God's mercies and to not seek approval of man upon the pulpit. For even in his fall, Pastor Sheppard is still living the life of God in humility and I RESPECT him for it.
Amante, with your tender heart, though it may feel broken and very sad at this moment in time, with your tender heart, allow your love for God to bring forth all that you have learned and use it to crush satan's head for he has not won. Do you hear me? Amante, satan has NOT won. And he will not win by aborting the Faith of the Lord Jesus Christ which lives richly and abides in you.
Amante, precious love of God... ARISE and show the devil who you are and let these men who have fallen see the good that they have done and the beauty that has grown in you in spite of their sin.
Write them a letter of love, letting them know that though they fell, you are still standing and you thank God for their lives and for all of the good that they have done for you and for others.
For they have done, some good. Have they not? Of course they have, The very proof of it resides within you. Beautiful you.
Love and blessings, Amante. You are more than a Conqueror in and through all of this, through Jesus Christ our Lord.
Now... rejoice for you have reason to; you've earned the rights to happiness and it is not to be stolen from you.