LucieLoo12
Well-Known Member
Good morning ladies,
I just had something on my heart that I wanted to share. It's amazing how God will continue to reveal things about you that you had no clue about or thought you was delivered from. But God wants us whole and complete, so he shows us these things not to discourage or depress us, but that we may call upon His name and be delivered.
I am engaged and set to be married November 2nd to a wonderful man of God.
. But through this engagement process I have noticed things in me that I didn't even know were there. My father has never been active in my life. My mom and him was divorced when I was 3 and my mom remarried when I was 6. My stepdad was there for me as far as a provider but there was no emotional connection at all with him. And me and my real dad didnt really start talking until I was in the 11th grade. So what I didn't realize was the emotional damage I had concerning my dad and the void of having a father that was left in my life.I didn't notice it until I got engaged. I found myself almost expecting my fiancee to hurt me, or not wanting to open up to him because fear of him not being consistent in my life. I would always tear myself down in my mind and find reasons for him not to want me. And I would think to myself "Why are you doing this? This man loves you." And one day he looked at me and said "Why do you keep shutting down on me, what have I done wrong"? And I began to realize this man has done nothing but love me and respect me. So I begin to bring this thing before God and see why was I acting this way. And God began to show me that I had not being healed from the hurt of my father and I was taking it out on my fiancee. I knew at that point I needed healing. I couldn't let this man fully love me until I got delievered.
I always associated my dad not being active in my life with something that I had did wrong. Why didn't he want me? Why wasn't I important enough to come back for? Or sometimes we may even go looking for that acceptance in realtionships, when it can only be found in God.So what I realized is me being healed wouldn't be me going to run to my dad and asking him to fill the void, but realizing that God fills all voids, He is that "I am". So I didn't go to man, I went to God. And God has been doing just that in me. I have been loving my fiancee more and trusting him and wanting to be more open with him. We can't love completely, until we have been healed completely.
So I wanted to write this to any woman that may have that void in their life from their father not being present in their life to encourage you that God is truly all that you need. Our relationships with our fathers can reflect how we will treat other men in our lives, but God said He makes all things new.
Some scriptures for you:
" For ye have not received the spirit of bondage again to fear; but ye have received the Spirit of adoption, whereby we cry, Abba, Father." (Romans 8:15)
“Your Father knows what you need before you ask him.” (Matthew 6:8)
" A father of the fatherless, and a judge of the widows, is God in his holy habitation." (Psalm 68:5)
“How great is the love the Father has lavished on us that we should be called children of God!” (1 John 3:1)
Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us in the heavenly realms with every spiritual blessing in Christ. For he chose us…. In love he predestined us to be adopted as his [children].” (Ephesians 1:3-5)
So let God heal you, that you may love freely.God bless
I just had something on my heart that I wanted to share. It's amazing how God will continue to reveal things about you that you had no clue about or thought you was delivered from. But God wants us whole and complete, so he shows us these things not to discourage or depress us, but that we may call upon His name and be delivered.
I am engaged and set to be married November 2nd to a wonderful man of God.
. But through this engagement process I have noticed things in me that I didn't even know were there. My father has never been active in my life. My mom and him was divorced when I was 3 and my mom remarried when I was 6. My stepdad was there for me as far as a provider but there was no emotional connection at all with him. And me and my real dad didnt really start talking until I was in the 11th grade. So what I didn't realize was the emotional damage I had concerning my dad and the void of having a father that was left in my life.I didn't notice it until I got engaged. I found myself almost expecting my fiancee to hurt me, or not wanting to open up to him because fear of him not being consistent in my life. I would always tear myself down in my mind and find reasons for him not to want me. And I would think to myself "Why are you doing this? This man loves you." And one day he looked at me and said "Why do you keep shutting down on me, what have I done wrong"? And I began to realize this man has done nothing but love me and respect me. So I begin to bring this thing before God and see why was I acting this way. And God began to show me that I had not being healed from the hurt of my father and I was taking it out on my fiancee. I knew at that point I needed healing. I couldn't let this man fully love me until I got delievered. I always associated my dad not being active in my life with something that I had did wrong. Why didn't he want me? Why wasn't I important enough to come back for? Or sometimes we may even go looking for that acceptance in realtionships, when it can only be found in God.So what I realized is me being healed wouldn't be me going to run to my dad and asking him to fill the void, but realizing that God fills all voids, He is that "I am". So I didn't go to man, I went to God. And God has been doing just that in me
. I have been loving my fiancee more and trusting him and wanting to be more open with him. We can't love completely, until we have been healed completely.So I wanted to write this to any woman that may have that void in their life from their father not being present in their life to encourage you that God is truly all that you need. Our relationships with our fathers can reflect how we will treat other men in our lives, but God said He makes all things new.
Some scriptures for you:
" For ye have not received the spirit of bondage again to fear; but ye have received the Spirit of adoption, whereby we cry, Abba, Father." (Romans 8:15)
“Your Father knows what you need before you ask him.” (Matthew 6:8)
" A father of the fatherless, and a judge of the widows, is God in his holy habitation." (Psalm 68:5)
“How great is the love the Father has lavished on us that we should be called children of God!” (1 John 3:1)
Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us in the heavenly realms with every spiritual blessing in Christ. For he chose us…. In love he predestined us to be adopted as his [children].” (Ephesians 1:3-5)
So let God heal you, that you may love freely.God bless
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