WonderfullyMade
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Hey everyone. Greetings to everyone on this forum and special blessings to all who are currently fasting. This is kinda long so bear with me.
I'm having a difficult time completing my fast. From since Nov, I had made the decision to do a 21 day Daniel fast on my own. But during the Christmas season I found out that my church regularly does a one week fast the first week of the year (this week). No biggie I thought. Until I got to church this past Sunday and my Pastor announced that it was to be a complete fast starting from midnight Monday until 6 AM Saturday. Pretty much those on medication could fast from 6AM-6PM. We have nightly prayer from 7PM and the culmination of which is on friday from Midnight to 6 AM.
My problem began on Monday (the first day of the fast). I thought I would complete fast from 6-6 and then Daniel fast after that. That was until I ran into my aunt, who church was on a Daniel fast, yet she had went out to lunch with my uncle because she chosen only to fast breakfast and dinner. She then put into my spirit that the fast could be whatever I wanted, however I had already decided how restrictive I wanted to be. I then proceeded, because I was SOOOO hungry to eat several different types of chips, made myself a sandwich, and ate a tangerine. It was only upon going to church that night, talking with my Pastor and believing that God would see me through the week that I decided to do a COMPLETE 24 hour fast (water is allowed) for the week.
Someone must have been praying in addition to me, because yesterday was wonderful! I was not even hungry and I KNOW that was God's favor in order to let me know that I could complete the week. THE PROBLEM IS: My Mother!! She's a Godly woman, who attends another church, I also live with her and my father. She herself has decided to do a Daniel fast, but she is not as supportive of my complete fast. Today she has cooked more food than she usually does on a Sunday (including my favorite), and then asked me to watch the pots while she went on some errands. To add to the temptation she then asked me to add some carrots to one of her dishes so that I would be standing over the pot smelling the food. When I told her I didn't want to, she accused me not wanting to help, instead of recognizing the temptation. She said she made the macaroni for me, and since I was a new faster it was not good for me to jump right in. Needless to say, this spoke into my spirit as well as I proceeded to "sample" the gravy from the chicken as well as help myself to a big serving of macaroni.
Now I don't even want to go to church and it starts in a half an hour! I feel sick from what I ate, and I'm somewhat disappointed that I couldn't last the day at least. I told my mom that she was discouraging me, but she still insisted on telling me stories of other people who fasted wrong for years and messed up their bodies. The thing is, I was really looking for revelations and breakthrough this week, but I really feel like I messed up. So you don't even have to say anything, but if you read this, please pray that God's will be done concerning this fast. I think I am still going to go to church because staying home and being discouraged is exactly where the devil wants me.
Thanks for listening to my rant. Hope all other fasters are finding their strength in the Lord.
I'm having a difficult time completing my fast. From since Nov, I had made the decision to do a 21 day Daniel fast on my own. But during the Christmas season I found out that my church regularly does a one week fast the first week of the year (this week). No biggie I thought. Until I got to church this past Sunday and my Pastor announced that it was to be a complete fast starting from midnight Monday until 6 AM Saturday. Pretty much those on medication could fast from 6AM-6PM. We have nightly prayer from 7PM and the culmination of which is on friday from Midnight to 6 AM.
My problem began on Monday (the first day of the fast). I thought I would complete fast from 6-6 and then Daniel fast after that. That was until I ran into my aunt, who church was on a Daniel fast, yet she had went out to lunch with my uncle because she chosen only to fast breakfast and dinner. She then put into my spirit that the fast could be whatever I wanted, however I had already decided how restrictive I wanted to be. I then proceeded, because I was SOOOO hungry to eat several different types of chips, made myself a sandwich, and ate a tangerine. It was only upon going to church that night, talking with my Pastor and believing that God would see me through the week that I decided to do a COMPLETE 24 hour fast (water is allowed) for the week.
Someone must have been praying in addition to me, because yesterday was wonderful! I was not even hungry and I KNOW that was God's favor in order to let me know that I could complete the week. THE PROBLEM IS: My Mother!! She's a Godly woman, who attends another church, I also live with her and my father. She herself has decided to do a Daniel fast, but she is not as supportive of my complete fast. Today she has cooked more food than she usually does on a Sunday (including my favorite), and then asked me to watch the pots while she went on some errands. To add to the temptation she then asked me to add some carrots to one of her dishes so that I would be standing over the pot smelling the food. When I told her I didn't want to, she accused me not wanting to help, instead of recognizing the temptation. She said she made the macaroni for me, and since I was a new faster it was not good for me to jump right in. Needless to say, this spoke into my spirit as well as I proceeded to "sample" the gravy from the chicken as well as help myself to a big serving of macaroni.
Now I don't even want to go to church and it starts in a half an hour! I feel sick from what I ate, and I'm somewhat disappointed that I couldn't last the day at least. I told my mom that she was discouraging me, but she still insisted on telling me stories of other people who fasted wrong for years and messed up their bodies. The thing is, I was really looking for revelations and breakthrough this week, but I really feel like I messed up. So you don't even have to say anything, but if you read this, please pray that God's will be done concerning this fast. I think I am still going to go to church because staying home and being discouraged is exactly where the devil wants me.
Thanks for listening to my rant. Hope all other fasters are finding their strength in the Lord.