locabouthair said:
i don't post in here often not because i don't believe in Jesus because I do. But I haven't prayed in a long time. i feel so far from God right now. Today I cried over something that has been bothering me for a while now but I usually try to pretend it doesnt bother me. I used to pray about this for a longggggggg time. then i stopped praying because it didnt seem like God wanted to answer my prayer. I finally realized today that I need to forgive others especially if I want God to forgive me. I think forgiveness is the only way I can let go of this because it is having too much power over me. I know I need God's help to get through this but he didn't answer my prayer before concerning this matter so I feel why should this time be different. I don't know what to do. I just want to be free from this thing. I just need some advice from a christian perspective. TIA
Locabouthair---I am experiencing the exact same challenge. I have commited sins so great and so deeply wounding to my soul I feel I may never overcome these demons. I have been weeping for months over the same thing and it has increased in the past weeks. But the miraculous thing is I know God is bringing me to my point of no return.
Dr. Jeremiah Wright (Trinity United Methodist Church-Chicago) visited my fair city two weeks ago and now I am transformed. The Lord moved in my life and took me by storm literally. This is what I am doing
First I went all the way back to the point where this challenge entered my life. Second, I evaluated how it has changed my life for the better and the worst. Third, I had to come to terms with why I am so unforgiving of myself when I know God healed me when I confessed this particular sin. Equipped with all this knowledge I went to have a therapy session with my preach (a woman)--where I laid it all out on the table and admitted I had been trying to do it all alone but today I know that the sun will not set and God allow this challenge to maintain its stronghold. I have minimized contact with everyone and I have turned inward so God can begin to reveal his truth to me. I have set a prayer time with Star's help and am attending Sunday School with more regularity. My preacher is praying for me and keeping in contact with me (which is keeping me accountable).
With this great power is coming great responsibility and I accept this challenge with a humble spirit. Please meditate on Psalm 51. Do more than just read it let it become a part of your mantra for life at this particular stage in your life. Replace your unforgiving spirit with the meat of this Psalm.