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Bublnbrnsuga
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Okay, here's the deal-le-o.
I have been going back and forth with the issues of my hair. I remember reading something about how our moderator, pebbles, relaxes and once she gets bored with it, she'll relax, get bored with relaxing, go natural again, and the pattern continues. It seems to me she has understanding of the concept of it JUST BEING HAIR!!
Anyway, I have been natural for almost 4 years and while I love being natural and I am waiting for my hair to be past shoulder length in it's natural state, I can say I am getting bored with it. I've been getting the urge to just CUT THIS MESS OFF!! I remember when I cut off my relaxed ends and began to style my hair, it was very difficult, but about two months later, I got the hang of it. My two strands were off da chain, my shake and go's were on the go-go, my puffs were puffalicious, my twistouts were banging and my favorite style, my 'phatty' two strand twists and twistouts were just too cute! Now, since it's getting longer, the above styles have been a great disappointment. Whenever I try to puff it up, my hair resembles a matted tumbleweed My shake and go's are big no-no's and my two strand twists??? Can you say UGHHH!!
Eventhough I am going through all of this with my hair and it disappointing me, I still haven't grasped the concept of it just being hair. I am the only person in my family with long hair and you should just see their reactions whenever my length shows!! At my wedding shower, my hair was the highlight. Everyone was in awe at how it grew back after my big chop.
I was a bit uncomfortable (anybody else feel this way?) being put in the light about my hair. It was like I was an unfamiliar creature and everyone just had to say something or touch me to see if I were real. People make a big deal about my hair and it's length!! I remember when I would tell my mother I would cut my hair she would mention my 'grandmother rolling around in her grave if I cut it off!!!' Then there's me. Will I be disappointed with the turnout? Will I regret cutting my hair? Will I cry? Will my hubby have to deal with me pouting? I am stuck between a rock and a hard place. I am really searching deep inside of my soul to come to terms with my hair and it's hold on me. Why am I afraid to cut it off , especially since I am not thrilled with the length it is now? Anyone else out there feel me? Also, who has come to the realization that it's just hair, nothing more, nothing less?
I have been going back and forth with the issues of my hair. I remember reading something about how our moderator, pebbles, relaxes and once she gets bored with it, she'll relax, get bored with relaxing, go natural again, and the pattern continues. It seems to me she has understanding of the concept of it JUST BEING HAIR!!
Anyway, I have been natural for almost 4 years and while I love being natural and I am waiting for my hair to be past shoulder length in it's natural state, I can say I am getting bored with it. I've been getting the urge to just CUT THIS MESS OFF!! I remember when I cut off my relaxed ends and began to style my hair, it was very difficult, but about two months later, I got the hang of it. My two strands were off da chain, my shake and go's were on the go-go, my puffs were puffalicious, my twistouts were banging and my favorite style, my 'phatty' two strand twists and twistouts were just too cute! Now, since it's getting longer, the above styles have been a great disappointment. Whenever I try to puff it up, my hair resembles a matted tumbleweed My shake and go's are big no-no's and my two strand twists??? Can you say UGHHH!!
Eventhough I am going through all of this with my hair and it disappointing me, I still haven't grasped the concept of it just being hair. I am the only person in my family with long hair and you should just see their reactions whenever my length shows!! At my wedding shower, my hair was the highlight. Everyone was in awe at how it grew back after my big chop.
I was a bit uncomfortable (anybody else feel this way?) being put in the light about my hair. It was like I was an unfamiliar creature and everyone just had to say something or touch me to see if I were real. People make a big deal about my hair and it's length!! I remember when I would tell my mother I would cut my hair she would mention my 'grandmother rolling around in her grave if I cut it off!!!' Then there's me. Will I be disappointed with the turnout? Will I regret cutting my hair? Will I cry? Will my hubby have to deal with me pouting? I am stuck between a rock and a hard place. I am really searching deep inside of my soul to come to terms with my hair and it's hold on me. Why am I afraid to cut it off , especially since I am not thrilled with the length it is now? Anyone else out there feel me? Also, who has come to the realization that it's just hair, nothing more, nothing less?