Christelyn
New Member
Dear LHCF community,
I gave birth to a 27.2 week premature infant on June 28 due to a massive infection. She is struggling, but holding her own, but has many hurdles to overcome before she comes home. I myself have had such a hard time with this, feeling hopeless and powerless, wishing this all could go away. The worst thing is that I feel that the Lord has pushed this situation upon me--we used protection and I STILL got pregnant, my husband insisted we go through with the pregnancy despite my history of pregnancy problems. I feel like all this pain has been thrust upon me, against my will. Everything in life was going well before this happened--I had three healthy, beautiful children, we had just moved into my dream home, and then....this. What makes matters worse is that my father died the same month she was born, and I feel like I have not been able to properly mourn him before this new, fresh pain began.
The worst thing I feel is that I feel so powerless over this situation...I feel like I've been forced into this, and I am so resentful. My worst fear is that my child will somehow be so disabled that she will be a burden and financial drain on us for the rest of our lives. We do not have the financial, nor the familial support needed for such a challenge.
Please, please pray for the health of my child--her name is Emma. Please pray that she will grow strong and heal from whatever after-effects may have occurred from her prematurity. I'm calling all the prayer warriors, and all the angels. Please, help.
Many thanks.
I gave birth to a 27.2 week premature infant on June 28 due to a massive infection. She is struggling, but holding her own, but has many hurdles to overcome before she comes home. I myself have had such a hard time with this, feeling hopeless and powerless, wishing this all could go away. The worst thing is that I feel that the Lord has pushed this situation upon me--we used protection and I STILL got pregnant, my husband insisted we go through with the pregnancy despite my history of pregnancy problems. I feel like all this pain has been thrust upon me, against my will. Everything in life was going well before this happened--I had three healthy, beautiful children, we had just moved into my dream home, and then....this. What makes matters worse is that my father died the same month she was born, and I feel like I have not been able to properly mourn him before this new, fresh pain began.
The worst thing I feel is that I feel so powerless over this situation...I feel like I've been forced into this, and I am so resentful. My worst fear is that my child will somehow be so disabled that she will be a burden and financial drain on us for the rest of our lives. We do not have the financial, nor the familial support needed for such a challenge.
Please, please pray for the health of my child--her name is Emma. Please pray that she will grow strong and heal from whatever after-effects may have occurred from her prematurity. I'm calling all the prayer warriors, and all the angels. Please, help.
Many thanks.