@bzb1990 I am praying for you and with you. Below are a couple of paraphrased scriptures that have helped me over the years to keep my mind stayed on The Lord no matter what I was going through at the time. I hope they help you as much as they have helped me.God loves the most - With God there is good and love and thoroughly good feelings between people.
I thank God for showing me kindness, truth, and granting me more understanding and tools to improve. I thank God for the favours, which are numerous, and the help, which is constant.
I promise to stay consistent in remembering God, thanking Him, and I will seek His protection from thoughts which hinder my success and cause me to falter.
God will keep you in perfect peace when you keep your mind on Him. Isaiah 26:3-4
Think (dwell) on the things that are true, honest, just, pure, lovely, of a good report, virtuous and praiseworthy. Philippians 4:8